In 4 more months, it will be the 4Th year anniversary of your death. I have made it so far, by the grace of God Almighty. It has been hard, but somehow I seem to muddle through a day.

Today I went to the Lawyer to get the Secession paperwork going. It is so confusing to me, but Perry went with me and that was very reassuring! My whole family have been such a help to me. I don't know why but yours seems to be as standoffish as they can get. OH well. I guess that is the way the Good Lord wants it. I really didn't feel like I fit in to well, but I tried my best. Still have some good memories of going fishing at your mom and dads. I don't know what I did to them to have them not want to talk to me. Probably something trivial, but I try not to let it bother me too too much.

As you may know, if you are looking down upon me, as I hope you are, I don't go out much.. just on Wed mostly. I met someone that I thought was going the be at least a companion. There is no one that can take your place, but I thought he would be close. Well, he turned out to have one thing in mind, and well, Homey don't play that. I want the whole package. Maybe I'm being self centered, but I need to have someone I can rely on, a friend Companion, etc. I think I'm going to just give up on that whole idea though. We will see

I love you very much, and miss you severely. I hope you are here. I do hold you to my heart always, and will never let the memories go....